WHY? A Psalm 51 Prayer

 Posted by on July 9, 2012  1 Response »
Jul 092012
 

Why do I do what I don’t want to do?

Why do I say what I don’t want to say?

Why don’t I do more of what I should do?

Why do I say NO more than I say YES?

Why don’t I look them in the eye and give them my full attention?

Why is making plans more important than carrying them out?

Why is this happening?

Why do moments like this and days like that come so often?

Why does the cyber world have such a hold on me?

Why do I sit when I need to get up and move?

Why do I struggle with following through?

Why am I unsure?

Why do I feel like I have failed?

Why have I stopped doing things I meant to do?

Why do I struggle?

Why am I busy with so much of what is not the most important?

Why do I waste time?

Why am I selfish when I should be selfless?

Why don’t I really get it?

Why do I question?

Why am I disappointed?

Why do I expect so much more than I see?

Why do I wonder?

Why am I not who and what I want to be?

Why, Oh LORD do You put up with me?

Lord I pray Psalm 51 to YOU with sincere heart. I pray it over my entire life; my relationship with You, the one with my husband, the one with my boys, as a wife, a parent, a homeschool teacher, a daughter, sister, aunt, niece, cousin, friend, fellow homeschooler, fellow church member and even as a stranger.

Oh, Lord, may all my WHYs be answered according to your grace, power, and plan. I need You Lord, Your word, Your guidance, Your power. I need all that You offer! I thank YOU for a new heart, a right spirit, a new moment, day and season in this life You have given me! I thank YOU that when I am so very weak You are amazingly strong!

Oh, Lord, love abundantly through me, work powerfully in me so that I do, say and act according to Your plan, not mine!

Psalm 51…Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love; according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin! For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned…Behold, you delight in truth in  the inward being, and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart...Let me hear joy and gladness;  Hide your face from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a  clean heart, O God, and  renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence, and take not  your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit…..

~By Angie, The One Thing